On writing

Day 1 

I’m going to start writing today.

Where’s my water?

I’ll do some yoga first.

Ok, back to the writing.

Don’t check social media. No don’t.

Hhhhmmmmm… writing…

Wild day outside. 

Good for writing.

I’ll make the bed first.

Okay, just a quick check on my phone.

Nothing exciting… I’ll leave listening to that last message later.

No maybe I’ll listen now…

Okay, writing.

What’s on my other to do list for today?

Back to writing.

First I’ll write about the dream I had last night in my journal.

Okay, back to writing.

What subject do I want to write on now?

Uuuummmmm…

This one.

Okay.

Back to writing.

I’m writing! Yah I’m writing!!!

Now this writing reminds me of a time… 

I need to write that down elsewhere.

So I don’t forget.

Now, writing.

I’m writing! I’m writing.

Hang on, I wrote down somewhere…

I need to find what I need to do today, besides writing.

And… ummmmm

What will I eat for breakfast?

First, writing.

Writing, ok… writing.

Washing.

Washing, then writing.

Ok, writing.

Now what?

What was I writing on again?

Day 2

4am

Get up

Write

Write now

Now

Now

Check phone.

Check FB.

What was I doing again?

Check FB.

What was I doing again?

Check email.

Who was I writing to again?

FB.

No email.

Damn it.

One hour…

Ok, I can refocus.

Where was I up to again?

What can I focus on today?

What do I want to write today?

Did I respond to Jenny on WhatsApp?

Oh yes I did… but hang on…

I didn’t respond to David.

David. Hhhmmm.

What do I say to David?

Was that someone outside?

I should check.

Right. 

Write.

Why is this so hard?

I need to cut my nails. 

Do it as a break after Sunni.

Not now?

Yes, after.

F*&#k.

After.

Ok.

Ummmmm…

Where was I?

What do I feel like writing about now?

I haven’t heard back from April.

Should I contact her?

No, I should wait. 

Wait.

I can wait, can’t I?

Shall I respond to the text from Murray now?

Or later.

Later.

I shouldn’t distract myself.

No.

No, no distractions.

Not now.

No, not now at least.

If I put the TV, will it be nice background noise for me to work to?

Yes.

2 hours later…

When am I going to write today?

Feeling pretty tired.

Maybe I’ll wake up early tomorrow and get into it. 

Yes.

I can’t concentrate now.

I’m very tired.

Tired.

Yes.

Tired. 

FB.

Funny vid. 

I think I’ll share it.

Ummmm…

Not now.

Maybe later.

Ok, just now then…

Hhhmmmm…

It’s 10.47pm. 

Where did that time go?

What did I write?

Tomorrow.

Tomorrow will be better.

Yes.

Yes it will.

Maybe.

Day 3

5.08pm

What happened?

Day 4

Ok if I can just do 20 mins.

I know I’ll feel better.

20 mins.

I can do 20 mins.

Can’t I?

20 mins without my phone?

What????

Yes. No phone Sunni.

Right.

Right. 

Write.

Hhhmmmm.

Ok then.

Write.

F$%^&*king bell!

Write.

Right?

Write.

20 mins?

Yes.

No social media?

That is correct.

Hhhhmmmm.

Ok.

Write.

Right.

Right. Ok then.

It’s so beautiful outside.

Yes, yes it is.

Maybe I’ll write about the beauty.

Right.

Right.

Write.

WRITE!!!

God damn it, write!

You’re such a hard task master.

Well I would be if you actually wrote something.

F$%&k.

You’re right.

Of course I’m right.

Now write.

Ok, ok then.

Day 5

What should I do today?

Is that a trick question?

Day 6

Yoga.

Talking.

Great talking.

Love talking.

Love yoga.

It will help me focus for the day, right?

Right.

Day 7

What day is it today?